Stop running – look up
Be still for a moment
Where are you headed?
Are you running towards – or running away?
If you don’t know where you’re going, you’re not getting anywhere…
It has been more than seven years since I last wrote a blog post. So why the sudden return? Earlier this week I was enjoying the sunshine and blossoming trees on one of my regular walks when I realized I have been neglecting the creative side of me – the introspection, the dreaminess, the philosophy.
Sometimes the pace of life becomes so fast that we forget to be still. Since I started working fulltime, my focus has shifted so much towards the development of skills and the achievement of personal growth goals, that I lost sight of my real purpose. I do not even know anymore why I am doing all these things and where I am going.
This feeling of unrest and loss of direction finds its origin not only in a fast-paced life, but in a fast-paced mind. When I do not take out enough time to write, my often overloaded inner world finds no peace and my brain gets tired and overwhelmed. In an attempt to find a healthier balance and quiet down my – often intense – thinking, I have been looking to social activities and fun. I cannot help but wonder whether this is a form of escapism? Every time I am on my own, the same questions and reflections pop up again. Deep questions about the meaning of life, identity, purpose. Themes that used to fuel my passion and take me higher – but now they are a source of melancholic feelings and anxiety.
How about I stop running away? And instead I will start to embrace the uncertainties of the human existence, and try to find a sense of new hope and meaning in the middle of despair.
“Seek and you will find…”
– Matthew 7:7
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.“
– 1 Peter 5:10